i dont know

Too numb to care anymore.
Whatever la. Whatever you want.
It's the thought of disappointing you that I can't stand.
Because I think that would hurt me more than anything else.

So how?

It's all tingly...

Eeeeeeeee....will jadi ka?

Hahah.

..........smiling away............

GGGRAGHHHGH

I don't like it when I want to do something that I know I most probably can't. Seeing so many other people having the same dreams as me actually achieving it.. and I'm left behind. Partly my fault as well but still... I don't like the feeling. This is my last chance to prove myself but there's no motivation. SIGH. What am I doing here?

God, help me see what's there for me..