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the time of the year

Yoohoo

Things have been so weird lately. The two landslides that have happened in Miri. For the sake of those who aren't in Miri, it's been raining like what like everyday gloom doom meh im so sad i can't go jogging im putting on sooo much weight.... And yeah, apparantly it's made the soil soft or something and the first one half buried a Shell petrol station along with two Indonesians, poor things. I mean, imagine dying without knowing Him and knowing where you'll be when you get to other side. And sometimes I disgust myself talking talking talking never doing what I'm supposed to do. Talk about going to other places, towns, cities, what more to say countries. Pahh, when its right here infront of me, why is it so hard just to open my mouth? Sometimes, it makes me think if music can speak for itself. Then again..... meh, I don't know.

Anyhoo, back to the landslides, the second one along the road in front of Grand Palace Hotel, carried away a few houses. Don't think there were any casualties though. I think they evacuated (is that the word?) about 300plus people from there.

Speaking of evacuation, I CAN'T BELIEVE ROGER DIED ON THE LAST DAY OF EVACUATIONNNNNNN!!!!!! I just watched The Atonement yesterday. Yes, thank you Mama it is a good movie i loved it love you too. Mannnnnn.. Brionyyyyyy whyyyyyyy????? Wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwu.. ='(

Sorry, back to the landslides. So.. the soil softened and all? Yup, and since the beloved church building is atop Canada Hill, the road going up has started sinking as well and to think of all those cars that were to go up on Sunday service. Eih.. HENCE, the service was moved to Dynasty which I think was so cool because we had to move all the music instruments and carry it to the first floor we looked like we were going on tour mahahahaha. And we're doing it again next week and most probably the next and the next and the next until whenever its safe to go up the hill again. Which now kinda makes me appreciate the church building, unlike some congregations who have their services in hotel ballrooms. I can't imagine how week in week out they carry their instruments, set up their stage, lighting, sound system and all. Salute. I'm sort of looking forward to next week's service at Parkcity =)

You know, sometimes after that alone time in your bedroom just talking to God does some good. Ok la not sometimes, I guess all the time but sometimes it's better. Am I making any sense? Anyway, I just think it's cool how when we're in so deep in our own troubles and distress and when we come to God, somehow the worry isn't there anymore. When through prayer, we learn to put our trust in God, we have peace. I have this funny mentality that a Christian life is supposed to be a perfect life as in God is always there to protect you so there's no such thing as hardships anymore. And when I look back at all those rantings on my own blog, I feel so stupid and childish for even wanting to post it up for the world to see. I think, even after all these years of knowing Him, I'm slowly beginning to understand that it's not like that. My life is just like everyone else's. If I hide these things, and keep it bottled up all to myself, am I denying that I'm human? Aih.. I don't like it when I start thinking deep. Then again, is this deep? Or maybe I'm just shallow. Hmmm...Ah. I've always been trying to put aside the thought that there are 'things' around that may not want me to get closer to God. I never liked the thought of spiritual warfare. But it's there, yaknw? Yala.. I'm just glad that God still chooses to speak to me even when sometimes I may be down right stubborn.

I remember I wanted to say something else as well but the thought kinda slipped my mind. Mehh.. then again, this post is probably the longest I've written and should probably stop here.

Ah yes, I think I remember. I love God despite the things He lets me go through. And I'll just echo Michelle here, I'm human no robot. And that Invisible Children is a must watch documentary. And that right now, from way way way way down, I'm utterly grateful for being single. Don't ask. AND that I'm annoyed at Malaysian universities because NONE of them have replied my emails. Haiyaaaaah...

Yes.. that's it.



=)

fishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

So I started classes again beginning of this month. Honestly, it's just.. whatever la. I'm hating the place more than ever. Don't ask why, not even I know the answer. Subjects aren't easy. I'm putting on weight. My money's flying here and there. Trying my best to put on a smile. Wish I was somewhere else.

On top of that, I can't understand why I'm not allowed to have a choice in life. Shouldn't I be allowed to pick for myself what I want to pursue in life?
X: Good for your ministry...

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THAT'S NOT YOUR CHOICE TO MAKE! AAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

YOU ARE NOT GOD I HAVE A BRAIN I THINK I'M CAPABLE OF THINKING I THINK I'M CAPABLE OF CHOOSING FOR MYSELF I AM NOT THREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Huhuuuuu

Have i mentioned how much I dislike Riam Tech?

Urghhhh... I don't want to go back to class.

Fix me up in a studio.... out of Miri. I'll be way happier =))

meh

stupid. cakap pun cannot, complain pun cannot, cry pun cannot. that's what happens to people who get stuck in miri la. they live in the past. miri is officially a suck fest. i need out. kenaina is so stupid. bodoh. nice way to start the new year. "yay"

i know i know. i kinda promised myself i wouldn't rant out on my blog anymore but haihhhhh sometimes what to do.

I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE!!!!!!!!

don't like miri. don't like miri. don't like miri. perth perth perth. anywhere but here. now. please.

Ah-meehh!

Kenaina, you are terrible...

Whyyyyy? Why now??

Ishhh spoiler..

Fuming

I just wrote a super long post and I accidentally deleted it.

NYARRRRRGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Monitor lizard crosses the road and dies.. meh

I ran over a biawakk!!!!!

I was driving to school with my dad the other day and we were going along the Miri-By pass road when this stupid stupid stupid biawak oh-so-slumberly slow went right in the middle of the road. I wanted to slow down, I tried. It just stood there like it mintak nahas or what. My goodness. Tidak nampak ka my car wanna ram you?? It avoided all the other cars when it crossed the road. Why stop infront of me?? Didn't you see the P sign???!! Argh... I know. I'm mad at a biawak. Who's more stupid. Me or him.....? Gosh... now it's a him. Bahh.

Anyway, I couldn't just stop there was like a string of cars behind me. Sigh, what to do la.

*geduk geduk*

My tyres ran over the poor thing. I looked back through the mirror. It was squirming and flipping around on the road. SIGH.. Who ask you stand infront of me?

Stupid biawak.... make me feel sad for what? Meh.

I know, this is yet again another one of my noob driving stories. Gosh, I really DO suck at driving =p

Letter to you

JERKS I miss you

College is a bummer

Don't like it here =(

Let's all meet up soon k..

Meh.

01.10.08.10.21

I've been up to quite a lot this week. My parents were out of town this weekend and I HAD THE CAR TO MYSELF!!!! Waahoo!

Friday night went out with my cousin Josh. Planned to hang at Coffee Bean but there wasn't any parking at Parkson, so we decided to scout around Miri for cocktails instead. Went to try out Siamese Secrets. A big nono. So we moved on to Mr Ho's Fine Foods. Sat at the bar area and I ordered a Midori Sour. Josh had a Seduction. Don't know why he didn't like it. Probably because of the Baileys. Nice ba... why he say taste like medicine. Heheh. But mine was nicer! =p


He looks weird there. Haha. I didn't know there was alcohol in there and I had to drive back. I know I sound like so noob, cmon me new driver ok. Ehehe.. Yeah anyway, I was scared to drive back considering my totally lame history of getting drunk on half a tin of Shandy. Gosh.. I'm so lame. But anyhoo.. we got home safe and sound ptl hahah=)))

Then there was EYM the following night where I had to pick Joy up. So after the usual traditional supper after EYM, we went over to Coffee Bean to meet up with Brad, Luffy and Jin Kiat.




THEN, was back to college on Monday. Went to the toilet. And...



These gross things almost got me locked in the cubicle. Like seriously, I start to wonder how many times the cleaner cleans the toilet PROPERLY. I mean, the last time I saw her 'cleaning', she just sprayed the cubicles with a hose. Like that's going to work. Please la. That second one has been there for WEEKS and I know, stop yapping and do something about it if you don't like it right? But yeah, I don't like roaches so I didn't get rid of it.

Yup.

Go

You make me so....

rrraaaaaghhhhh!!

It's not working and you know it. Or maybe I ask for too much. Wait. No I don't.

If you haven't noticed, I'm a girl. For goodness sake!

Just one.. uno.. ONEEEEE measley conversation that YOU initiate. PLEASE.

Ugh.

Do d happy dance!

MOCKS ARE OVERRRR!!!!!!!

All that busting my head, sacrificing events (and lunch. huhu..)

...are gonna keep on comin.. sigh...

Well, bring it on la.

"yay"

Ngeh

BIG sighhh

I don't like assignments. Especially when its on Malaysia's national integration, racial privileges and racial harmony.


Puh-lease........

Boohoooooo

Right now, I'm stuck in the college library waiting for my most dreaded class to start in 10 minutes.. LAN (stupid Moral and Msian Studies). I honestly thought I was DONE with those subjects and when Dr Lee announced that we had to take them again, I almost cried. Arghhh.....

Why I hate those subjects?

Well, Msian Studies is almost like Sejarah, just that now it's in English. And no, I don't think we have the upper hand because no matter what, I've always had a mental block when it comes to Sejarah. And as for Moral, that's the subject that has let me down the most... because it was my lowest grade, the one and only C6 in one of the most important examinations that would determine the rest of my life. For goodness sake, a C6 for the most useless subject ever. And now I have to face that subject again. Grargh.... I just thank God that I only have to PASS in order to get that whatsoever cert that I "need".

THANK GOD IT'S ONLY FOR 7 WEEKS TOO

..or I'd die =((

Word of the week: PAIN

I think I'm going to claim this official that I am accident prone

The week before my semester ended, I was limping all the way due to this young adults telematch thing we had at the beach. Don't ask how many cramps I got throughout the week =(

Then, just when I thought everything would go back to normal, my little toenail tercabut when playing footie (with slippers, stupid me) AGONY

When it grew back a little and it wasn't hurting anymore, Justin knocked over the church bongos and the metal part crashed on that same foot. Two minutes after, it swelled up and now nothing can touch it. Gragh.

I wonder what I'm going to hurt next... ='(

*deep breath*

Sighhhhhhh.....

Very geram, you knowww

Why ba..

>=(

Graaaaaaargh

=(

I...

need a break

from everything

I'm tired

GGGRAGHHHGH

I don't like it when I want to do something that I know I most probably can't. Seeing so many other people having the same dreams as me actually achieving it.. and I'm left behind. Partly my fault as well but still... I don't like the feeling. This is my last chance to prove myself but there's no motivation. SIGH. What am I doing here?

God, help me see what's there for me..