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You make me so....

rrraaaaaghhhhh!!

It's not working and you know it. Or maybe I ask for too much. Wait. No I don't.

If you haven't noticed, I'm a girl. For goodness sake!

Just one.. uno.. ONEEEEE measley conversation that YOU initiate. PLEASE.

Ugh.

Bring on the stress please!

AS exams coming up in two weeks. Arghh.. When is the stress and tension going to start kicking in??? I didn't touch any work AT ALL this weekend. Boohoo.

The car...... it's so tempting =(

Saying goodbye to music

It is NOT easy

For those who know me, music is my all (apart from God lah hehe). Without it, I just wouldn't be me at all. So why did God tell me to let go of something that was so important to me? Something that played such a major role in my life that I would be almost lifeless without..

This didn't just come up recently. The first time He told me was two years back. Kenaina let go of those that's not of me. First thing that came to my mind was my cds. avril. blink182. linkin park. Noooooooooo! (I've grown out of that music now but you know me then...) I compromised and instead of throwing them out, I put them away in a box, my 'scapebox', along with some other stuff. So now, ok my ori's are in a box. Bring on the fakes! Continued again all the way till last year. This pastor from India came to preach at our church and he said something about throwing away worldly music. My dad being my dad made all of us throw away those things, which I wasn't happy about. I thought, if I wanted to I should've done it in my own timing. Why did I have to follow what he said and take a step in my spiritual life when I wasn't ready for it? I was wrong. I decided to talk to Darren about it. If there was anyone that would understand what I was going through, it would be him.

Many other things happened but to cut the long story short, I was doing my quiet time this week.

Just to derive slightly, I love what our guest speaker said at church yesterday. I didn't get his name but he's from DUMC who apparantly has a tall, good-looking son, or so I heard *coughcoughceliiii* Anyhoooooooo, God is not that small minded. If you don't do your quiet time, he's not going to bring down fire on you. It's for YOU to get closer to God and that's how you can communicate with him. So you should only feel guilty about yourself not trying harder to get closer to God. Something along those lines la....

Anyway, yeah. I was doing my quiet time. And I read a devotional. Ah.. devotionals always come in at the right time *sigh* It was talking about music again. That we should be careful with what we listen to and all that. It brought back what God tried to tell me years ago. Guilt.

But I continued in my stubborness so I argued with God. "Why take away something that you've put in me to love so much? And what about other people? They're so far in their spiritual life yet you never told them to let go of it pun! It's not fair ba!" It went on and on and on....

I recently got into this song "I Kissed A Girl" by Katy Perry and I was humming it in the car on the way to music practice that night. I know... like such a hypocrite right? Then, suddenly God said to me "Those words in that song. Do you think it puts right images in peoples' minds? Does it come from me?" That made me shut up.. Sometime after that, somehow God reminded me of what I said about other poeple and why they can listen to secular music and I can't. He told me "Well, it's on their record. Not yours." And it suddenly hit me. I realised how directionless and self praising these songs were.

Can I just say this.. I LOVE GOD SPEAKING TO ME!!!! =))))))))

The following day, I continued on reading my bible and I came across this verse.

26 If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left, 27 but only a fearful expectation of judgement and of raging fire that will consume the enemies of God.

Hebrews 10:26-27

I don't even have to explain this part. God was telling me to once and for all to do what He said or I would have to expect what I knew was to come. So from there, all my cds original and fake, songs in my computer, gone. I have yet to delete the ones in my hard disk but I will! Sorry to all those who have burned cds for me but yeah.. did what I had to do, you know?

So I'm sharing this from my heart and I'm not telling anyone to do what I did but I post it as a challenge. This post wasn't to offend anyone either so if it has, sorry. But I do hope that it has somehow made you guys realise something. Long post, but it's worth it =)

EYM Cook-out '08

Despite cooking in an open field for two hours under the sizzling sun (literally!) which gave me a splitting headache, a terrible tan and bruises and burns after.. IT WAS FUN! My group members are so awesome; we really pulled our dishes off from absolutely zero to something that looked edible! Hahah. Forgot to take a picture of it.. ah well. We didn't do so bad.

Our menu:
i) Sweet corn and egg soup (my group's was a total disaster!! Hahah)
ii) Salad
iii) Sweet and sour fish
iv) Curry chicken (our signature dish =)) I forgot to put salt!!! Argh)

There was also a mystery dish, or more like a mystery ingredient which was only given to us on the day itself. We got hotdogs. In my head I was like.. "Whut? Such a cute mystery dish?" Hah! So we just went and fried it. In the end, we got fourth place. Just 0.2 marks to third place! Haiyaa.. Heheh. But anyway, we had good fun.

Jess was holding the camera today so this is her group's food



The 6 group leaders, Michelle, myself, Cheryl, Gavin, Allan and Jasper =)


And congrats to Allan's group who got 3rd

I don't feel like congratulating Michelle but SIGHH here goes... congrats on 2nd place Michelle... *rolls eyes*
Hahah. Nola. Kidding Marsh. Congrats and cute salad =)



And, 1st place to Jasper's group! Dude, ur salad is awesomeeeeee. Lovin' the lemon!

And that was today =)

But I thought he's older?

Lya and I were sitting on the sofa about 11pm after doing her reading homework and we were talking about the different stages of education there were. Like you know, after tadika, there's primary school then high school, college then university. I explained to her that I was in college and how many more years it would take for her to be in college.

She started with the manjak-ness, squeeky voice and all..

Lya: You'll be going to university next year *sad face boohoohoo*
Me: Yup. But nevermind. You got Kenaidy ba
Lya: Kenaidy? But I thought he's older than you? He go to university la...

I was like.......

!!!!!!!WHAT!!!!!!!GOBSMACKED!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes she's five but she's been living with me all this time and didn't know I was the eldest among us. Cmon!!

So, yeah I was going "WHAT???" in my head for a while, then I started thinking.

Well, at this age I'm quite impressed she's that rational. I mean..

This would explain it

*dush*

Do d happy dance!

MOCKS ARE OVERRRR!!!!!!!

All that busting my head, sacrificing events (and lunch. huhu..)

...are gonna keep on comin.. sigh...

Well, bring it on la.

"yay"

2:09

I was just reading through my saved messages in my phone and stumbled upon a few that made me laugh

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Anak: Ayah, ni siput ape?

Ayah: Siput babi

Anak: Siput ape?

Ayah: Siput babi, nak...

Anak: Siput ape?

Ayah: Siput babi, syg...

Anak: Siput ape?

Ayah: Siput la... BABI!!

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If you had sex 365 times this year and kept them..
you can make a tire and actually call it a...
GOODYEAR!

Wishing you a happy new year!

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Hey u! I gv u warn don u evr hurt my fren felling ok! If i so smthg differnt frm her jaga u! Don u evr hurt her on friday! I watching u. Don make smthg stupid infront her! Said 2 ur fren dont do it.. N don mke my fren cry. I really haet it.. U don knw who she is. She vry2 sick u knw! Please..Don mke her sickness attck her again. She at the hospital nw. Critical u knw bcoz of ur fren who send the msg mke her sickness attck u knw! Please.. She at wad 2 operation.

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That last one is a long story but yeah, I guess only if you knew the story you would find it funny. Hehehe

This Week

YAY I'M 18!!!!

I feel so legal =)))))

SO! my family took me out for dinner at Marriott on the eve of my birthday because my mum was to go to Kuching the following day. It was funny, my mum was babbling all the way there about the buffet being RM30 plus and all. By the time we got there, just when ordering, the lady told us it was actually RM75 *tweennng*

I had my first taste of Shirley Temple



It looks disgusting here but these babies were AWESOME



You know in the first High School Musical movie where this baker-basketball player sang about baking creme brulee and stuff? Yeah, I never knew what it was til that night. Hah. It's the yellowish looking thing.



And Jess enjoyed her emo shots *cough cough shoes cough*



After dinner, we went up to hang out at the lobby...

...where I got my sister pissed at me


The boy in the back *sigh*


And we called it a night =)

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1st Sepetember, the retard family came over (missing Bubek and Alien) supposedly to pen some stuff down. Who knew they came to surprise me with..

...the cutest cake ever =)


and prezies! (which I adore by the way. Thanks gurls!)

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The following day was back to school. Kim Teck and Luffy surprised me with another present =)))

Now my big Mr bean teddy has a lil' twin


Went to Esplanade today during lunch break

Had fun writting in the sand too! >=) I would've posted a picture but I believe in confidentiality and keeping the peace... for now... Ahaha.



So conclusion, it's been a fun week for me

=)


Oh! Oh! I got my P licence!
And! And! I know the menu for the EYM cookout on 13th Sept!