Estrella

Aiyohhh like, seriously la. This is the only Malaysian sound I'm giving hats off to.





It's simple and probably isn't much but it's really not at all that bad ba kan? Hmm..

Orite! Malaysia got budding hope d.

i dont know

Too numb to care anymore.
Whatever la. Whatever you want.
It's the thought of disappointing you that I can't stand.
Because I think that would hurt me more than anything else.

The Power of Your Name

It's already cool that Lincoln Brewster featured Darlene Zschech in "The Power of Your Name" on his latest album "Today is the Day", but when I listened to it properly.... Yeah yeah, I know. Only after a week since I borrowed it, I listen to it. Heh.

Anyhoo, goes something like this.

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Surely children weren't made for the streets,
And father's were not made to leave,
Surely this isn't how it should be,
Let Your kingdom come.

Surely nations were not made for war,
Or the broken meant to be ignored,
Surely this just can't be what You saw,
Let Your kingdom come,
Here in my heart.

(Cho)
I will live,
To carry Your compassion,
To love a world that's broken,
To be Your hands and feet,
I will give,
With the life that I've been given,
And go beyond religion,
To see the world be changed,
By the power of Your name.

Surely life wasn't made to regret,
And the lost were not made to forget,
Surely faith without action is dead,
Let Your kingdom come,
Lord break this heart.

(Bridge)
Your name,
Is a shelter for the hurting,
Jesus Your name,
Is a refuge for the weak,
Only Your name,
Can redeem the undeserving,
Jesus Your name,
Holds everything I need.

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Argh. What else can I say. The chorus blew my mind away. To go beyond religion.

NgaaaaahhhhHHH

I need to be a part of this generation, along with everything it comes with.

"I whana get married again and again and again and again......"

1. How old are u?
19. NOOOOOO!!!!!

2. Are u single?
Yes. I don't know whether to be sad or happy or grateful or.. thankfull or... ya.

3. At what age do u think you'll get married?
Insyalah before I'm 25. Branak lambat nanti tiada bagush owhh

4. Do u think ur going to get married with the person ur with right now?
I'm not with anyone now eh.

5. If not, who do u want to marry?
Neh.. that hot dude who plays his guitar, has sexy hair, has a sexy voice, loves the sexy me. Hahahah LOL LOL LOL. Nola.. the guy God picks for me.

6. Do u want a garden/beach wedding or a traditional weding?
I always thought a garden wedding wedding would be cool. Beach not a bad either. Of course, the weather must be considered too.

7. You're ideal motive?
What does this question mean??? =(

8. Where do u plan to go on a honeymoon?
No where too mushy lovey dovey, a nice tourist spot la with enough life and activities =)

9. How many guests do u think ull invite?
Enough necessary

10. Do u want an extravagant or a simple wedding?
Simple is good.

11. Do u wanna go for the traditional vows or create ur own?
Dono eh. Which one is better?

12. How many layers of cake do u want?
Enough to serve everyone?

13. A ceremony at the hotel or a simple place?
Garden is where ah?

14. When do u wanna get married?? Morning or evening?
Morning eh. Evening for dinner right? Errrr...

15. Indoor or outdoor reception?
Indoor eh. Nyamuk tiada bagushh...

16. Would you like a grand entrance for the bride?
Er. Dono. Grand ka tidak grand ka, people will look anyway ba

17. Song/tune for ur wedding?
I'm 19

18. Morning or nite person?
I don't know what this means

19. Solemn or lite ceremony?
Lite laaa.. "CELEBRATE the coming together of da da da" So, be happy la.

20. Describe ur ideal husband/wife.
#1 God fearing. Mesti punya.
#2 Wife fearing.Wahahahahahahhahahahaha!
#3 My best friend
#4 Can use his God-given brain
#5 Don wan so lovey dovey. Malas say "I love you too" so many times.
#6 Musically inclined

21. Fine dining or simple fork and spoon kinda thing??
Hotel punya is what ah?

22. Champagne or red wine?
Errr.. champagne is what ah?

23. Honeymoon right after or a few days after the wedding?
Mana-mana la. No need oso can.

24. Money or household items?
This questionare is very stupid la.

25. Who will pay for the bills?
Who can, contribute. Don so lazy. Smack you later.

26. Are u ready for married life?
Malas la.

27. Do u think ull be a virgin before u get married?
Stupid.

28. Will be true to ur fren/wife/husband always?
Stupid oso.

29. How many kids would u like to have?
Mana2

30. A new or old house for the newly wed?
New eh.

31. Silver, gold or diamond wedding celebration?
Sakit mata nanti. Do normal. Itu macam manyak bagushhh

32. Cuisine for ur wedding?
I feel the questions are repeating.

33. Record ur honeymoon?
Yes eh.

34. Whose wedding plans ud like to know next??
Jin Kiat and Teck's would be interesting.

There's a cat on my screen i dont like it its annoying who go install i wanna marah you

I'm in the computer lab in college now. SO SLEEPY. Ok now I know tea doesn't work for me in the morning. Coffee!!!! Celine, another trait I have just inherited from you. What la...

Anyhoo, for the sake of those who aren't in Miri and SAID THEY'LL CALL BUT NEVER DID. Hahahahaha nola, lov ya beb. I went back to CT Academics yesterday and out of nowhere, I asked about psychology. I know, I know. Noone can imagine Kenaina psych-ing people right? Like whada... Hahah. Yeash anyway, it went on and on and onnnn, and I ended up applying for it. Errrrr...

Curtin and Murdoch-psychology, ECU-psychology + children and family studies, UWA-psychology + music WOOOT!

I don't really know what I'm getting myself into, smart la me go apply psych for ALL the uni's. Oh well. But yeah, for some reason I don't feel worried. I found it cool how you can choose to do either educational psych or clinical psych for Masters. Hah! So.. I think the parents should be ok with it soon enough once they see the clinical word... ehh =p. Oh Oh plus, I never knew there were media and music majors too! Woot! ME WANT ME WANT! Hahaha. But whatever it is, I think its safe for me to say I have finally found it la. What with all the whatever mushed confused mixed up thoughts I had. The next challenge is to tell my parents because I know they won't like it. Wahahahahah > =)

Aih the thought of finally getting out of Riam can put me to sleep. Where's the offer letter FASTERRR I want an offer letter! Then again, this is just the application. Mana tauk maybe they won't even accept me ka.. mehhhhh. Wtv la, a girl can dream =)))))

He's coming

God has been just so AWESOME this past week. Looking at what I've been through, and what my gurls back in Miri have been through, how can I not say that God is not real? Because He is. And He's coming very very soon, you'll see. When you hear the horn being blown, when you see the cloud descending, when people start to dissapear right out of their clothes, you'll see.
I'm shaking as I type this. Scary, no? I labelled this post under notifications; a public announcement. Get ready, believe, and you WILL see.

<3

Okay.. let me just say this.
When God speaks, He speaks.
Philippians is officially my favouritEST book in the Bible. Hahaha

Falling in love with Him aaaaaaallllll over again
And you too, retards

=)))))))))))))))

vday?

Since its Valentine's Day, I google searched it just for fun.

And I found this awesome awesome picture =)))

LOL

shine sun shine

I saw the sunshine for REAL the first time in a month today!!

WARMMMMMMMMMMM i misss youuuuuuu

Stay

So addicted to this song Stay by Estrella. It's not even that great but but..... its sho sweeeeet!

All my sorrows flew away

Hush, keep quiet, hear me say

I don't ever want you to go

Please stay

With the moonlight dancing free

And there's no one but you and me

There's no reason to go astray

Please stay.

I'm so jiwang now. Argh. Here we go again. Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Karma

Remember the two people I saw trip on the stairs and I had to suck it in to hold my laughter?
Well, it was raining super heavy at Riam today. And I slipped. Twice.
Karma has caught up to me.
Meh.

geli hati

I saw two people trip on the stairs today. I tried my best not to burst out laughing.. the saddist that I am.

Bhahahahahahahahahahahahhahhahahaha!!!!

Thanks to them, it made my day. Haha. Riam has its ups after all =))))))))

Yoohoo

Things have been so weird lately. The two landslides that have happened in Miri. For the sake of those who aren't in Miri, it's been raining like what like everyday gloom doom meh im so sad i can't go jogging im putting on sooo much weight.... And yeah, apparantly it's made the soil soft or something and the first one half buried a Shell petrol station along with two Indonesians, poor things. I mean, imagine dying without knowing Him and knowing where you'll be when you get to other side. And sometimes I disgust myself talking talking talking never doing what I'm supposed to do. Talk about going to other places, towns, cities, what more to say countries. Pahh, when its right here infront of me, why is it so hard just to open my mouth? Sometimes, it makes me think if music can speak for itself. Then again..... meh, I don't know.

Anyhoo, back to the landslides, the second one along the road in front of Grand Palace Hotel, carried away a few houses. Don't think there were any casualties though. I think they evacuated (is that the word?) about 300plus people from there.

Speaking of evacuation, I CAN'T BELIEVE ROGER DIED ON THE LAST DAY OF EVACUATIONNNNNNN!!!!!! I just watched The Atonement yesterday. Yes, thank you Mama it is a good movie i loved it love you too. Mannnnnn.. Brionyyyyyy whyyyyyyy????? Wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwu.. ='(

Sorry, back to the landslides. So.. the soil softened and all? Yup, and since the beloved church building is atop Canada Hill, the road going up has started sinking as well and to think of all those cars that were to go up on Sunday service. Eih.. HENCE, the service was moved to Dynasty which I think was so cool because we had to move all the music instruments and carry it to the first floor we looked like we were going on tour mahahahaha. And we're doing it again next week and most probably the next and the next and the next until whenever its safe to go up the hill again. Which now kinda makes me appreciate the church building, unlike some congregations who have their services in hotel ballrooms. I can't imagine how week in week out they carry their instruments, set up their stage, lighting, sound system and all. Salute. I'm sort of looking forward to next week's service at Parkcity =)

You know, sometimes after that alone time in your bedroom just talking to God does some good. Ok la not sometimes, I guess all the time but sometimes it's better. Am I making any sense? Anyway, I just think it's cool how when we're in so deep in our own troubles and distress and when we come to God, somehow the worry isn't there anymore. When through prayer, we learn to put our trust in God, we have peace. I have this funny mentality that a Christian life is supposed to be a perfect life as in God is always there to protect you so there's no such thing as hardships anymore. And when I look back at all those rantings on my own blog, I feel so stupid and childish for even wanting to post it up for the world to see. I think, even after all these years of knowing Him, I'm slowly beginning to understand that it's not like that. My life is just like everyone else's. If I hide these things, and keep it bottled up all to myself, am I denying that I'm human? Aih.. I don't like it when I start thinking deep. Then again, is this deep? Or maybe I'm just shallow. Hmmm...Ah. I've always been trying to put aside the thought that there are 'things' around that may not want me to get closer to God. I never liked the thought of spiritual warfare. But it's there, yaknw? Yala.. I'm just glad that God still chooses to speak to me even when sometimes I may be down right stubborn.

I remember I wanted to say something else as well but the thought kinda slipped my mind. Mehh.. then again, this post is probably the longest I've written and should probably stop here.

Ah yes, I think I remember. I love God despite the things He lets me go through. And I'll just echo Michelle here, I'm human no robot. And that Invisible Children is a must watch documentary. And that right now, from way way way way down, I'm utterly grateful for being single. Don't ask. AND that I'm annoyed at Malaysian universities because NONE of them have replied my emails. Haiyaaaaah...

Yes.. that's it.



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