Yoohoo

Things have been so weird lately. The two landslides that have happened in Miri. For the sake of those who aren't in Miri, it's been raining like what like everyday gloom doom meh im so sad i can't go jogging im putting on sooo much weight.... And yeah, apparantly it's made the soil soft or something and the first one half buried a Shell petrol station along with two Indonesians, poor things. I mean, imagine dying without knowing Him and knowing where you'll be when you get to other side. And sometimes I disgust myself talking talking talking never doing what I'm supposed to do. Talk about going to other places, towns, cities, what more to say countries. Pahh, when its right here infront of me, why is it so hard just to open my mouth? Sometimes, it makes me think if music can speak for itself. Then again..... meh, I don't know.

Anyhoo, back to the landslides, the second one along the road in front of Grand Palace Hotel, carried away a few houses. Don't think there were any casualties though. I think they evacuated (is that the word?) about 300plus people from there.

Speaking of evacuation, I CAN'T BELIEVE ROGER DIED ON THE LAST DAY OF EVACUATIONNNNNNN!!!!!! I just watched The Atonement yesterday. Yes, thank you Mama it is a good movie i loved it love you too. Mannnnnn.. Brionyyyyyy whyyyyyyy????? Wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwu.. ='(

Sorry, back to the landslides. So.. the soil softened and all? Yup, and since the beloved church building is atop Canada Hill, the road going up has started sinking as well and to think of all those cars that were to go up on Sunday service. Eih.. HENCE, the service was moved to Dynasty which I think was so cool because we had to move all the music instruments and carry it to the first floor we looked like we were going on tour mahahahaha. And we're doing it again next week and most probably the next and the next and the next until whenever its safe to go up the hill again. Which now kinda makes me appreciate the church building, unlike some congregations who have their services in hotel ballrooms. I can't imagine how week in week out they carry their instruments, set up their stage, lighting, sound system and all. Salute. I'm sort of looking forward to next week's service at Parkcity =)

You know, sometimes after that alone time in your bedroom just talking to God does some good. Ok la not sometimes, I guess all the time but sometimes it's better. Am I making any sense? Anyway, I just think it's cool how when we're in so deep in our own troubles and distress and when we come to God, somehow the worry isn't there anymore. When through prayer, we learn to put our trust in God, we have peace. I have this funny mentality that a Christian life is supposed to be a perfect life as in God is always there to protect you so there's no such thing as hardships anymore. And when I look back at all those rantings on my own blog, I feel so stupid and childish for even wanting to post it up for the world to see. I think, even after all these years of knowing Him, I'm slowly beginning to understand that it's not like that. My life is just like everyone else's. If I hide these things, and keep it bottled up all to myself, am I denying that I'm human? Aih.. I don't like it when I start thinking deep. Then again, is this deep? Or maybe I'm just shallow. Hmmm...Ah. I've always been trying to put aside the thought that there are 'things' around that may not want me to get closer to God. I never liked the thought of spiritual warfare. But it's there, yaknw? Yala.. I'm just glad that God still chooses to speak to me even when sometimes I may be down right stubborn.

I remember I wanted to say something else as well but the thought kinda slipped my mind. Mehh.. then again, this post is probably the longest I've written and should probably stop here.

Ah yes, I think I remember. I love God despite the things He lets me go through. And I'll just echo Michelle here, I'm human no robot. And that Invisible Children is a must watch documentary. And that right now, from way way way way down, I'm utterly grateful for being single. Don't ask. AND that I'm annoyed at Malaysian universities because NONE of them have replied my emails. Haiyaaaaah...

Yes.. that's it.



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